Thursday, December 31, 2009;
Annyeong Haseyo
i super admire and envy those who could go out today.
i practically faced the computer the whole day.
i tried not to emo by immersing myself in the game.
and i did it all the way to 11pm
when my father came home
there is nobody else who can beat him in spoiling someone's day.
i was with my sister in the room finding a website which we could watch live(korean countdown)
then he was there shouting for my sister and my sister ask me to go attend to him.
when i asked him wha he wanted, he gave me a whole load of bullshyt -.-
he said i have been using the computer from morning till now and the tv was left on-ing and i didn't pack my table..
he said i was getting from bad to worst...
then he say that he want to see me off my computer at 12am.
the thing is....i just realised how much i know which is bloody little -.-
yesterday i went to orchard with my friend and he told me about 'heeren'.
i didn't know whats that -.- so i asked him what heren??
he said things which meant that i as stupid -.-
i found out how much i have been lacking in life, ppl get to stay over night outside with friends and celebrate festive, ppl have been to every shopping building in orchard possible.
and here i am don't even know where is heeren until yesterday and i don't even know what are the other malls other than "imm,jurong point,west mall, lot1,suntec city"
how pathetic i am?? -.-
my parents....just when my friendship with my friends are getting a step even closer they stop me...they cease it.
every time my friend ask me out i have to go through my mother sometimes even my father and the chances of me going out was 45%.
this really really make my friendship with my friend drift a part.
yesterday my mother still baotoh(complain) to my father i was still using the computer....don't want to let me go out and don't want to let me use computer...
If you guys don't want to go out then don't tie ppl down please ty -.- i have got my own plans today...
i'll proceed to emo-ing le. need to off com now if not my father will beocme a old laddy nagging again -.-
ANNYEONGHI KASEYO, ANNYEONGHI JUMUSEYO!!
Do you have any idea how does it feel to be facing the four walls and a computer screen from morning till night??
Do you have any idea how does it feel to be so lonely in school when class has 43 ppl and you got no one to talk to??
Do you have any idea how does it feel to be left alone and left to rot at home in the holiday??
Do you have any idea how does it feels to be betrayed by your best friend??
Do you have any idea how does it feels to be condemmed in your class??
I guess only little people know how does this feels unless you personally have tasted it.
mood: sad and envious
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